Remote Dispossesion
Sleep inducing lulabies, trying not to hypnotize
what I see through my own eyes
sketching out my self despise
I can't wait for my demise
trying to eternalize
muffling my weary cries
looking up and to the skies
an essential part of me now dies
a circumstancial paralize
on a quest, immortalized
whatever feelings, realize
where my true hope really lies
from what I did should now arise
to myself, monopolize
everything is bound in ties
depending on important size
looking for another way
outrageously enough to say
watching my slowed decay
depending on a vast array
waiting for another day
compensating anyway
now I think it's time to pay
possible within this day
exceeding but without delay
thinking about how to weigh
the heavy choice, to my dismay
I think I'll wait another day
Spontaneous
Combustion
Everyday,
the same old thing
nevermore
I hear that ring
irridescent
crystaline
subliminting
myriads
coarsing
through, dillusionary
anticipate
obedience
overpowering
subconscienceness
enlightenment
galore
by
vast array
this
very day
infinity
throughout complexity
definity
an
ecstasy occasionally
I
must agree that...
Every
very second, coarsing
through
my mind, approaching me from
my
behind, in fidelity, I need not find
for
combustion is and always will
consist
of, rotting misconceptions
tying
loose connections
inferiority
despising
though
not surprising
taken
from a vast, arising
devastation,
interrogation, desolation
Combustion
seizing spontaneous destruction
Clouds
Clouds adrift
mesmorizing
clouds afloat
hypnotizing
always changing
never seizing
various size
metamorphing
into memories
vast simplicity
internalizing thoughts
everlasting hope
perpetual motion
changing cycles
deep in thought
pondering
subtle existance
not a purpose
but to float about
wherever the wind blows
never stopping
always moving
nowhere in particular
unlimited opportunities
forever trapped
by wind itself
not knowing
what it's missing
but trapped
within reality
perpetually
Rain
Cold,
damp
not
a purpose
in
life, nor
existance
neverending
movement
reality
destroyed
a
myriad of light
filtering,
through
tiny
raindrops
spreading
thy
spectrum
of
emotions
deep
into hearts
never
unveiled
remaining
sealed
within
reality
a
broken heart,
without
repair
is
lost inside
despair
driven
anxiety
antecedant
hopelessness
invading
eliminating,
without
a
trace, from
reality
Evaporation
Empty hearts
painfully forsaken
iscolated
lacking necessary
love, mourning
thy loss of thy
beloved, waiting
patiently, for
their return,
fading away
dissapearance
heartbreak ridden
sacrifices
objection to
wrongfull dellusions
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demending,
waiting, for the
right time to
arrive, doth thou care?
about justifying visions
irreplacable emotions
everlasting memories
painfully forgotten
Kaliedoscopical Dellusions
Everything around me's, swirling like insanity
Sucking in oblivion, what's left of my life
Taking with it, the vast amount of people
Connected by emotions, finding no escape
Is this the end, of a lifelong desire?
Masquerades dancing, swirling here and there
every bit as frightning, as what I did deserve
Terifying masses, of what has become of me
Disintegrating portions, of what will derive from me
Flashing, flashing, prancing through the wind
I'm searching, searching, searching through my mind
Looking for a better self, outrageously enough to say
Corrupted insanity, streaming through eternity
Blazing, blazing, blazing through and through
Obliterating consequences, racing throughout time
Galloping, galloping, galloping through time
for my distinctiveness, never ever seizes
Dashing, dashing, dashing throughout thoughts
Incinerating consequence evade my weary self
Fiery streaks, billow through the sky
Blasting, blasting, corrupted twisted thoughts
vortex, vortex, swirling me inside
embedding me with agony
immortal infestations, corrode my weary thoughts
Corupt, twisted weary thoughts, flooding through my mind
Flooding, flooding, flooding throughout time
self-destruction imminent, exploding in my mind
Life's a tornado, ripping me apart, tearing what is
known to me, and grasping what will come to be
Access Denied
Avoiding all my misconceptions
Swaying into lost directions
Seeming absent, concentrations
Frantic Representations
Subsequent derivitations
Flowing all around
Pushing every thoughtfull thinking
Trying to eliminate
All the passwords of my life
Barricading all existence
Now I type in desperation
Trying random combinations
Still I get that incantation
Access Denied
Everlasting Eternity
Forever spinning fragmentations whirling in myself
Spiriling eternity determins who we are
Mass deceiving cross perplexing pieces, inner thoughts
Demanding retribution, everlasting in my mind
Demonic reputations, never ending dreams and hopes
Ammased disgracement circulating, freely in my mind
As if I were a part of nothing, never any part of something
Determined, never seizing, never ever will I fall
Sadistic evolutions, not gladly I recall
Psychotic disillusioned everlasting weary eyes
Old forsaken memories are quickly set ablaze
Evading all the misery, engulfed in misty haze
Irridescence present, satanic in my mind
Infinity ammased in incandescent reign
Retribution fueled, cynical to weigh
Impossible, sardonic, fantasies arise
Distinctly metamorphing, no one hears my cries
Maliciously dependant, on thy vast array
Deafning silence, pounding in my mind
Never leaving, always present
Throughout all eternity
Surrealistic
Nightmare
There I sat in desperation
Pondering my pointless existence
Revealing my inner thoughts
Eliminating those wasted feelings
Evading lonely weariness
Sadistically insane corruptness
Taking over myself
Cynical delerium, distraught
Sensitivity, surrealistic dellusions
Flood my desperate cries
Approaching anxiety, definity
arising, those memories set ablaze
Disintegrating mass proportions
Vaporizing reletivity
That deafning silence
Ripping me apart
Now in terrorizing agony
Thinking about what has happened
Seeing blured distortions
Obliterating mass devotions
Wading through warped reality
Viewing no escape
Spiriling masquerades, threatning
To decieve, that's what it's meant to be
Nevermind, I've found the key
Unlocking the door to my mind
Letting it escape
Racing throughout time
Perplexing mass complexities
Seeing all that's meant to be
Imagining dependancy
From no where ever
Amazed distortions
Belowing all irrelevancies
Disintegrating retribution
Passionate hate
A little too late
Surrounded with desire
An overwhelming myriad
Of distant, satanic memories
Never disapearing
Every bit as close
Filled with utter vengence
For everything requiring
Love for weary hearts
Metamorphing misty eyes
Always peering down on me
Flooding me with my desires
Impossible to evade
Twisting down that pitch black tunnel
Landing in a starry chasm
Tears are falling, never siezing
Hitting faithfull ground, now weaving
Threading passions, burning anger
Expressing vast simplicity
Without ever realizing
What they have done
Now I realize what I have done
Nothing more will come undone
The bright sun shinning
Dark clouds drifting
Surrounding hope, everlasting
To my surprise, the words arise
Truthfull lies
Starring through my eyes
Seeing what I have done
To myself I cry, now weary
Exiled to embedded dreary
Showers of tears, never ending
Spraying out, away
In the air, with vast despair
Given upon hope
Through future and past
Memories will last
No matter what I say or do
Now this day is through
Night arises, shrouding darkness
Cloaking Blindness
Surrounding ebony
A warping existence
Abruptly shifting
To my dismay
Regretfull enough to say
Sublimination set ablaze
Seeing through this misty haze
Blazing through my memories
Racing by, rejected feelings
Without repair
I'm in despair
I'll still be there
When I demise
Hopelessly corrupted cries
Seeing but without delay
Painfully in every way
Don't you see what I am saying?
Encrypted feelings
Locked away
Not released
From everyday
Trapped in emotions
Millions of devotions
Desolating crossed dimensions
Dissopating, lacking feelings
Sensetive derivitations
Seeing no escape
Forever searching
With no luck
Knowing no escape
Allways sealed in
Panifull memories
I finally land
In muddy sand
Earthshattering
I realize now
That when I fall
When I recall
Those painfull memories
Never leave...
More to come.